Sunday, February 15, 2009
*sigh*
I've been feeling different lately...
My control of my temper has suddenly ceased...
I just dont know why...
Is it because I having been too much pressure in my head...?
Pressure of family matters..?
Pressure of my footballing career..?
Pressure of my studies...?
Or maybe pressure of my friends..?
I cant seem to know the reason...
Maybe i vent in too much anger inside me for almost a year...
A possibility that suddenly burst my anger and frustrations towards my fellow brothers..
I'm really sorry guyz....
I didn't know that i would suddenly snap and burst it at you guyz...
Damn it...
Well,the fact is right now,I'm using all the anger i have in my football...
The more I'm angered,the more i perform...
I don't know why..
Hahaha
I work harder when I'm angry...
Hmm...
I need to work harder and push myself further right now..
I don't want to disappoint myself in every game I played in..
This is my top priority...
I need to build discipline and focus in my football...
Coach,watch me...
And to that someone I recently knew...
You came into my life without me knowing it..
Appearing in the the void of partial darkness I'm in..
I was thinking....
Its this a new challenge for me or a fated meeting of two similar hearts...?
You cleared most of my doubts and gave me great confidence within my heart...
Proving to me that you're something much more special than any I have known...
But the thing is,I know I can't hasten my feelings..
Its not the time..
And its not the right time for you either..
Time is still giving us a chance...
From any other,I'm only focusing on you altho there are others waiting...
But you...Only you...
Maybe you are the one..
Maybe you will be the one..
God knows..
I'll stand behind time and see what happens..
As for now,I'm giving my great focus in reaching greater heights in football and studies..
God give me strength and patience...
My future is unknown..
Lest there's a clue and light that i should seek to knows the coming...
Insyaallah...PS: Surprisingly,you are the only person i think of every night,every day...
7:24 PM